My life has been so much different over the last year and a half than it has for the entire length of years before it. There is one reason for that, Christina.
Yesterday, I was leaving work and people at work joked that it was my last days of freedom. The one that said it was joking, but I do see many at work that SHOW this attitude, and it is not just this job but every job and place that I have been, including social media. They do things to occupy themselves to not be at work. They state the need for "personal time" away from their spouse, which becomes more and more time. When they talk about their spouse, it is "the old ball and chain" and like they are talking about a rebellious child or a warden, and there is no end to meme's and videos online about the husband as being an idiot or brute or the wife as being the nag or emotionally unstable. This is not to say that every day will be perfect, and there will be fights and things that each of you will do that the other won't want to do. However, what I am talking about is the PRIORITY you put on those choices and the DESIRE of where you spend your time. Jesus said in Matthew 6:21, "For where your treasure is, there will be your heart also." Basically, what you value the most is where you will spend your time. But, I understand their doubt. There are many places where the search for love falls apart, if you don't wait to find it. After both of our ex's, even we were doubtful there would be true love out there, and I experienced several failed options, along the way, after my divorce to cause me to further doubt it existed. But, I kept solid to what I was looking for and gave it time, and just when I was about to give up, I found her...on a dating app of all places and not just a dating app but one that is not known for the best filters...indeed, almost none. But, I had no money,and it as free. So, of course, I was doubtful at the start, and I wasn't sure a good person would be there. But, that is just life...there will always be those right for you as your love or your friends or whatever. If you keep looking and chose well, magic can happen.
I say all of this to say that there is a REASON that I spend MY time doing dates two times a week, an evening out at the hotel once a month, tv time with her each night, texting through the day, and being upset when we CAN'T be spending our time, together. We LIKE each other, and I really LOVE everything about her. As I stated at the start of this blog, it changed my entire life. It did NOT change ME in that it didn't change my views of diversity, parenting, friendship, God, love, or any other characteristic that makes me..me. What it DID was provide someone that LOVED that IN me, and I loved that in her. So, we lived HAPPILY, after that point, not like being a man out of place like a liberal in a conservative state or a man behind enemy lines. I could live in CHRISTINA world, and I love that world.
So, today, I celebrate her birthday, and tomorrow I will make her wife. In all my days, I have never been so sure that every tomorrow will be better and better with her, and I look forward to turning and reading each new page. It is going to be such the interesting and exciting story.