Going to do a late post, before bed. Want to get this outta my head and into a post.
I was listening to a band that I somehow missed in the last year, Ava Max, singing “So Am I” about not feeling bad, because you are different. It really had an impact on me.
So, if you have been following me for a while, you’ll know I took the feminine gender for a while, because I didn’t match with the interests of men (sports, fighting, hunting, competition) and have always been a caretaker.
When that was rejected by my 2nd wife with whom I felt safe, it caused a 6 month long crisis in me, ultimately resulting in me going back to the male career focused person I was BEFORE waking up.
To be short.. this song reminded me that I am beautiful AS I AM, even if that was rejected. I still need to make money, but I can do it as MYSELF... as I am.. not the person others made me before.
Not sure if I will be trans again or just feminine in interest and activity, but I will be bringing myself as I move on.