You could consider this part B of the last one, as I have had a lot of time to think so far this weekend. It is a different point but the last one was a launching point.
As I ended, I was saying how I want a deep relationship with someone but was going to stay in the single safe zone till that happened. The problem with that is that you end up not ever leaving and then reflecting back on years wasted in doing nothing or living a life that you don’t want.
This weekend I planned and began doing things on my own. I did some of those so far, but I canceled my intent to go out Saturday night. The main reason I did that, other than parking and resting, was really that that’s not me. I’m NOT a party person. I’m really an introvert that must be social at times. I don’t want to meet or be with someone that doesn’t match that, and I’m not sure that’s the best environment to meet what I want.
What I WANT is someone that is excited to be with me for ME, not the places we go. I’ve lived that error before, and it does not end well. It’s not that I don’t like doing things. I do. But, I want someone as excited to sit watching sci-fi or comedy with me as they are at a fancy restaurant or activity.
Of course, that presents the challenge of meeting them, and I will start putting myself out there and having conversations, but what I won’t do is expect to find depth of connection and intimacy with people just looking to have fun… the main reason I don’t really use Tinder. I want to have fun and friends for fun is good, but in MY case that will mature into more focus on one person and my adventure will be learning more about them.