"Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them." Mark 11:23
I touched on this in a social media post the other day, but I wanted to expand on it, as I realized there was a whole blog post of things I could say about it.
I have this gift... had it since I was young. You could call it prophetic or divination, depending on your religious perspective. When I set up two alternatives, I can often tell which to do or when considering two outcomes which will happen. One just FEELS right. This is true even when my logic gets in the way of it. In fact, many of the bad outcomes in my life (and marriages) happened when I chose logic or will over that feeling.
However, it doesn't always show itself. I can't always tell. Sometimes, that is because there is very little difference between outcomes. I could be happy with EITHER of them. Or, there is something preventing me from seeing it. Recently, I have been able to tell a lot about others and things, but I could feel very little about myself. Yes...I could do Tarot, and my tarot has ALWAYS been accurate for the above reason. But, it would only present vague promises... not specifics. When I can't read the direction about something, it is completely silent. It's like in Twilight when Aro wanted to read Bella. "There is nothing," he said. That is how it can feel.
I say all of that as preference to make my point on what comes next. Last weekend, I became quite DISCONTENT (first step to progress according to Thomas Edison) about the fact that I have a LOT of experience and education but was living at a MUCH lower living standard than to which I deserved. I would discover as I reflected on that that I felt I should NOT succeed, being white and male, which was a leftover feeling from when I was in the liberal circles. But... I was CREATED with the potential that I have and should not limit that for others... especially when those others wouldn't step back for me.
So, I got expectation and became determined (two elements that I have said in the past equals faith) to take back all that I had given away and get more... to BECOME blessed, whatever it took. AS SOON as I made that determination (before I had actually acted on it), the lights came on in the Ken prophetic path about Ken. I could FEEL and SEE all of that happening, and that I will become what I desire to achieve. So, faith CREATED that for me to see.
When I was in college, I had to write a paper on fate vs free will. The professor didn't like my answer, and I got a C for that paper, I recall. However, what I said was that we had free will to choose what we will do in our lives, and when we make those choices it will BECOME what was fated for us from the beginning of time. I think that is part of why I am kept in the dark regarding things relating to my life. Jack Sparrow says in Pirates of the Caribbean On Stranger Tides, "Better to not know what moment may be your last, every moment of your being alive to the infinite mystery of it all." I think for us to know what we may choose would keep us from the struggles that grow us and make us CAPABLE of making those choices and be prepared for them.
So, my point being that sometimes, you are not waiting on God, but God is waiting on your to LIVE and understand to make those choices, trusting that you will get there wiser and more prepared in the end. Your faith impacts your reality. What you choose to believe affects what you do, which affects your outcome. And, you will have a Divine audience rooting for you, as you do.