I wanted to do a post on a recurring theme that has been a part of my story with my love, since the day that the romance has begun. However, it is also a theme that applies to any new direction or change that happens in your life. New experiences in your life often happen, and we are tempted to try to understand or respond to them in old ways. However, new experiences are ... new. New things are by their nature something that you have not experienced in the past, and therefore require a special kind of thinking.
My love and I have had an amazing beginning to what I expect to be a very long and incredible life. However, the journey didn't begin with my plan or control, and it has progressed from one thing to another that was outside of my understanding or experience. I had not experienced someone that was so loving to me or to others. I had not experienced someone that showed such love back to me or care for my well being or passion towards me, as well. There was so many things about her that I did and do greatly appreciate, but I was not at the beginning fully equipped to totally receive it for as good as it was. I had to recognize that it was something that I had not seen to adopt a new way of thinking about it.. that it was an adventure.
An adventure is something that you cannot fully understand, before you go out to take it. You have to step outside of your comfort zone and take a risk. Then, you have to say to yourself... ok... I don't know where this is going, but I like it and am excited to see what lies ahead.. like reading a new book by a favorite author. In this case, the author was God in my life.
Another thing you must must have to fully understand an adventure is to understand how little you understand. You must be teachable. You must adopt the attitude that says, I don't know all that there is out there, and I am curious about what I don't know to fully appreciate what life has to offer. Indeed, there is no way I would have been prepared for or expected the amazing path I am on with her, now. There was also many ways that I had to adjust and grow to fully romance her as she deserves and to love myself as I deserved. I had to be teachable to become what I needed to be to receive the good in my life.
They noted in church the old Parable in the gospels in which Jesus talks about the small mustard seed that grows into a great tree. I have little experience with growing, but I am learning a lot about growing things from my love. Those that plant seeds do so out of hope in what it can become, but they are also curious to see how it will bloom. I feel that we are just seeing the shoots of an amazing plant of us that God has planted, and I look forward to seeing it grow and flower and make room for others to rest and sing in our branches. There is SO much ahead that I cannot know, but I am happily moving forward in the greatest adventure of my life.
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