I have focused a lot over the last 5 months on the joys in my life, and I think that is probably because they are so wonderful and so unexpected and took control away from my cynicism and gave it to what I consider to be a divine adventure. But, that does not detract from the fact that I have a LOT more experience in life of disappointment, pain, and having to recover from near total loss on many occasions. I read the story of Job, and I am like... it only happened once? That is not to say that I cannot have joys, now. But, I feel that if God was preparing me for anything it was to understand the pains of many people, as I have experienced many of them... not all but definitely more than a typical human share. I have faced medically forced financial struggle several times over my life. I have had family in medical strains. I have lost family to medical issues. I have personally been unable to work with a retina issue that would cause 6 months of...