I have had this post in my mind to do, but I felt it was incomplete and should come after I've fully risen. But, that's not real, and it's not true to the message... so doing it, now.
The holidays have been difficult for me for years, because I was spending too much of my focus on the past. Without going into much details, I faced a series of difficulties that was out of my hands to prevent that would strip away family and connections that I had relied upon as a sense of identity. If you feel it could never happen to you, that's how I felt for years, until it DID happen to me.
Bill Clinton sais on TV this last week, "There are no permanent victories or defeats." He's lived both sides of that coin, and it's been true in my own life. I have good memories from good times in different parts of my life in various stages. At those moments, I felt as secure as Clinton would have in his 8 years as President and had only hope for the future. Then, like him, I've had it systematic stripped away. And, you feel in those dark moments that all hope is gone, forever. But, no storm lasts forever, as they say.
In Twisters, there was a scene, when the male lead star was consoling the woman lead star for the loss she suffered from her storms. He explains we gauge tornadoes by how much destruction it takes from us and asks how much more will she let it take from her.
Like many others, I have clung too long to the good that I've lost, and doing so I let it take more and more from my present and future. Presently, I have worked to establish a good foundation upon which to stand and rise. I'm making near the highest income I've made in my life. I put 1300 dollars into paying old bills and 1100 into auto repairs this month, and I still have leftover money in the account and will have a good budget for presents for family and activities at the end of year. Good...is happening. It may not look like the good of the past, but it is worthy of joys of the future, which cannot happen if I judge my life by the past and not the days ahead.
So, regardless of your personal loss of the past or the evil we are seeing in society, you CAN have a good future, if you are willing to let the past go and build a new happy future.
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