Lean In

There are a lot of things in my not sure category of my life.  It's not as many as before, and I have learned to forgive others, accept my own fault and forgive myself, approach each day anew and enjoy the good of the days.  However, old fears can easily surface in unrelated events and stories, making it difficult to get too deep or committed to new potential life goals.  There has just been too much change of things upon which I have relied to choose reliance, again... at least now.

So, what do you do when you are facing good days and old fears?  You don't want to lose the good for the fears, but it is right to take your time and consider your future for yourself without rush.  Anyone or anything that would take that time away from you is in my opinion suspect.

I think the first thing to do is realize you are not in a movie, nor feel that your life must replicate one.  Life is a mess.  You and your life is unique.  It must be approached in that context.  Next, I think it is important to feel happy in the days.. don't ignore the good in front of you for fear or the past.  You also don't have to have it all figured out.  That kind of clarity is rare.

Ultimately, I believe the solution is just this.. lean into the good.  Where things are pleasant, enjoy the pleasure.  If someone is kind, be kind to them.  If you feel peace, rest.  If you feel moved, feel... all while knowing each moment is the present and not a promise.  

I feel it is best in my own life to let the future bloom out of following these choices, rather than trying to create something not present in your mind.