Real

I had already decided I wasn't going to blog post, tonight; because I was feeling tired and uninspired.  Then, I saw a meme talking about how writing exists in your real life... your struggles, your emotions, your life.  That somewhat led me to this blog post, sorta.  I won't be posting any details about my life, beyond mundane life routine ones.  This blog post will be a completely sanitized post only about how I feel, because in my head it can be used to provide some good advice.  I hope you agree.

Most immediately, I am tired.  I've been tired a lot this week.  This is partially because of my recent step up in fitness.  I need to step up my protein I think, too.  It's also from a tiring week of work, though I have got a lot done.  But, how I'm feeling right now is tired.  But, it's a good tired, and this is a teachable moment in that the REASON I am tired is from self improvement and work skill.  It would be much better than being tired and not having done that.

I'm feeling steady on the stair step I am on, but I'm not feeling overly motivated to climb the next step, nor do I feel like I should climb back down.  So, the feeling is that I am taking a breath and a beat, before I begin to climb.  And, I think that is important.  You cannot always be rushing forward, and you should definitely not be doing so without feeling balanced.  Life is not a race.  You are not competing against anyone.  I give myself grace to take whatever time it takes, and I give others the same grace, as well.  We are all just doing our best and no one else can tell us what that best should be.

I am feeling good about who I am as a person and feeling confident that I can love that person, without needing someone else to validate who that is.  Knowing that, I have the patience and peace to continue loving myself and part of that loving myself is to give myself time and not to settle for others that do not share the same opinion that I hold about my value.  Sometimes, truth does not come in thunderous applause but more closely a thunderstorm of distraction to try to focus on anything other than the most important love that you will have in your life.

And, now, I am feeling satisfied with this post, other than to simply say that whatever your struggle and however tired you are also feeling, tomorrow is a new day and the next day a new day, as well.  Rest and reward will come, if you keep to the track and push forward.  I will cheer you on that journey.