You Deserve to Be Here

There is a wonderful line in a movie that I used to watch for the holidays, each year... called The Holiday of all things.  In it, two of the characters are talking about life and that the woman is not acting like a leading lady of her own life.  She says, "You are supposed to be the leading lady of your own life, for God's sake."  Here's the scene.  Indeed.  Man or woman, you SHOULD be the leading character in your own life.  You deserve to have a seat at the table in your own life.  You deserve to be happy of your own life.  It's... your life.

I did a post a bit back about how recently I have been walking more upright with my head held high.  There are a few times that started to make me slouch in my walks or more, and I would notice right away that I was doing it.  It didn't feel NATURAL, anymore.  It felt like betrayal of myself, so I would lift my self up, steel my eyes forward, and march into what may come.  I would suggest that whatever you are facing in your life, you do the same thing.

Because.. you DO deserve to be a leading character in your own life.  If someone doesn't like who that is and doesn't want to be around it, they are in the wrong story, and you should not feel bad about that.  You should also not condemn them for being different.  They are the leading character in THEIR own story, and perhaps your stories just do not follow the same path, and that is ok.

You should never feel bad about being who you are.  You should never feel that you must change who you are to please others... in minor ways of common courtesy and respect or to work together as begets a civilized society, yes and you should always want to improve, but that is to improve as the best version of YOU, not another person that someone feels is better.

So, hold your head up high.  Think of all your good qualities and do things that help you to shine and be happy as yourself.  You deserve to be yourself.  God knows it took a long time to get to who are are, and the would be at a great loss to be without you in it. 

And... Action

 In The Holiday, you have this exchange..

Abbott : Iris, in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend.

Iris : You're so right. You're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life, for god's sake! Arthur, I've been going to a therapist for three years, and she's never explained anything to me that well. That was brilliant. Brutal, but brilliant.

The last several weeks, I have been taking more personal control over the direction of my life, instead of letting others or circumstances direction it.  As a result, I have peace... like... all the time.  I do believe that I will see a payoff for my efforts... my psychic ability to predict how things go has been ringing off the hook... that's an old phone saying for younger generations.  It just means I feel it coming.... AFTER I began acting to bring it about on my own and stop waiting for God or fate to do it for me.  But, the peace is worth it all by itself.  I began believing I deserved it, and suddenly I feel... worthy.  And it's easy to be patient to get what I deserve.

But.. none of this works have happened if I didn't get fed up and take action.  I've said several times the last months that the multiverse is real insofar as to say that every day our choices dictate the dimension... or version.. of our lives that result from those choices.  So... what tomorrow are your current thoughts and actions writing.  Are you the leading character or hero in your own story?  If not, why the fk not?  Do something about it.  What do you have to lose?