Forward to Happiness

Just finished Agatha All Along's first season.  I won't give spoilers, but it is very good.... sad... but good.  Thus, the ... between Happy and Halloween in the blog title, too.  I've repeatedly talked about the value of darkness and struggles in my posts.  You often need those dark places.   I will give one non spoiler quote to this effect from the final episodes.  One person was struggling, and another started to rush over to help and Agatha said, "Don't rob her of her struggle."  I think that only goes so far, and you SHOULD help those in need.  However, recently, I've also reflected on many in society that feel life should come to them on a platter and sees every difficulty as an attack.  Sometimes... it's just hard.  Sometimes, evil things just happen, which IS a theme in both Agatha and Wandavision it came from.  When we ignore that and whine about everything that's difficult, we are wasting time we have to do something ...

I am not Anti Christ, but I am most definitely anti Christian... at least organized bodies made by men.  And, I believe Christ would be, as well.  When I got a Bible degree and most of a Seminary degree at a university founded by the leader of the "moral majority" movement, I abandoned it after more and more experiences seeing the church in action.  I knew that I could never be a part of such a hypocritical and hateful foundation they adopted in practice, apart from their holiday services or when they wanted to collect donations.  So, i left... with one course remaining in a seminary degree... a course that would require me to go out and call people evil to their face. Fast forward over a decade later, and nothing I've seen changes my mind.  I've noted non Christ like behavior by my ex and churches in which I've served.  I've noted how the church spends WAY more time condemning people for their political party, choice of attire who who they love than they d...

I'll start by saying there's nothing wrong with a romance or being in a relationship.  If you were lucky enough to find someone that respects you, desires you, supports you, and is committed to you, that is a good thing... assuming you feel the same.  However, not everyone has been so lucky.  For many of us, we ended up with people that abused us emotionally and more, neglected us, and were only with us for what they could get from us, til they could no more.  Then, when the well went dry, so did their "care" and interest. I have not dated in over a year.  Partially, it was because I was addressing financial needs and relocating.  But, it was also from growth, and the longer I went not dating.. the more I grew.  It's like when your kids grow up.  At first, you feel like you are losing all that refined you, which is actually very sad.. tho many are not equipped to understand that.  But. After a few years, you rediscover who you are without the...

I was having a discussion with someone on TikTok, where I mentioned Kamala's huge government aid package for first time he owners, after they said the cost of housing had risen (she also is offering a huge aid package for small businesses), and the person said that government aid causes inflation.  So, my first response is to say, "Ah, so veteran aid for homes and more causes inflation."  There was a long pause, before his next reply.  Finally, he said a veteran is worthy of every benefit they get.  So, I replied, "So is a single mother raising a baby, or aren't you pro life?" How did we get to the point of saying SOME lives are worthy and some are not?  Life is life.  I had a similar discussion, recently, where I noted that Mary had Jesus in a stable while being homeless, and later Jesus was homeless for all the years of his Earthly ministry and asked if they should be denied aid for being homeless and not working.  The other person in the debate trie...

I've said it before.  I can only co conclude based on what I've seen. One year ago today, my very religious ex decided upon me dropping off my child after our weekend to block all future weekends for my child to be with her dad.  Was it because I did something terrible?  Threatening?  Angrily?  Nope.  We had just spent a weekend together after months of my having to be face down following eye surgery.  We had pleasant conversations, as usual.  The only thing I did was suggest my daughter should apologize for not spending her summer with me as I was entitled.  I had said in the Spring that as much as I wanted to see her I would understand if she had a job and couldn't spend the summer with me. Come summer, my ex texted that my daughter was LOOKING for a job and would be home as she did it... not the deal but ok.  The summer would pass and almost all was without a job but not with me.  So, I said she should apologize, and that set off...

I like Thunderstorms.  When I lived in Florida, I missed them. Yes.. Florida gets rain and an occasional Hurricane, but there's nothing like when one air mass comes in contact with another and war ensues as they compete for who will remain, afterwards. It's kinda like that in my life, lately.  I put in the work to enact positive change, and that kicked off my own conflict of storm fronts in my mind and being.  Do I believe in and enjoy the new or rumble over the old.  It's not an easy choice, and to some degree both must remain.  But, at some point you have to stop condemning yourself for what you lost and enjoy what you gave in yourself to gain. So... rumble on and bring the change.  I may struggle with accepting the new, but even I know there is only one way to find happiness after loss... by creating something new for a happy new life.

I only blog when I feel moved.  I've started twice in the last several days and abandoned it bothers times for lack of resonance. Finally. I feel resonance,  and it's not pleasant... but... it's real. We think that society is driven by greed or desire or ambition.  In truth, it is driven by pain and darkness.  I don't mean it is driven by the desire to be healed or find the light.  Since when has the majority of society been interested in truth or improvement.  They are driven by pain.  They try to block it out with distraction of entertainment or success.  Whether they are successful is beside the point.  It was never about where they land.  It was about where they left... particularly about not thinking about it. I'm not saying you cannot have success,  after pain.  You can.  But, that's like trying to replace a square hole with a triangle piece.  It can be a very good triangle, but it will never replace the square ...

In the recent Government investigation of Trump that became public, the lead investigator gave an insight to the Trump campaign that he would condemn being made public. In the release of quotes and testimony from the Jan 6th Capitol event, you have a testimony of a conversation Trump had with his family upon Air Force One in which he said. "It doesn’t matter if you won or lost the election. You still have to fight like hell."  He said this, knowing he had lost the election but was planning on disputing it, because he never conceded anything.  He said he also has never confessed any sin to God. But, I have to partially agree with Donald on this, because it won't matter if he wins or loses.  I would still make his life hell for every broken promise or harm of lower or middle class if he won for all of his term.  And, just let the right that has failed to even acknowledge Biden as President tell me I should be loyal.  I plan to be a very DISLOYAL irreverent citizen...

Many have heard about Schrodinger's Cat philosophy metaphor.  For those who haven't and to butcher it in simplification, when a cat is in a box that is closed, it is both alive and dead to those outside, til the box is opened and the actual state is known.  Til that point, both are real to others.  I'll come back to this.. We live in so many boxes over our lives... from the moment we are born.  We are male, female, Caucasian (that term will need changing to be honest), black, white, rich, poor, Midwestern, American, Hispanic, Asian, and so on and so forth.  When we enter the world, we have no idea what that means.  We are TAUGHT what people SAY it means.  We are also taught this is "normal" and this is not, this is the god you should be good for and how to do it.  These are the things you should fear.  Indeed... fear is a big one used to direct people.  That doesn't mean you shouldn't avoid danger or harm, but you don't need fear for tha...

"Find a purpose for yourself, not your father." (Kaos, S1E1) That  quote was said by a good truck salesman to Dionysius in the first episode of Kaos on Netflix, when the god was lamenting that his father, Zeus, wasn't giving him any real promotion or purpose.  But, I think it is a valuable lesson for all and introduction to a theme for this post. We are all like him in this mistake of thinking, so often.  We sit around waiting on others to save us or give to us purpose and meaning of life.  Then, when they reject us, it can destroy us for a long time.  It took me years, but I finally learned in the last 6 months to value myself enough to start making decisions and actions to make myself happy without needing to check in with someone else.  It was and is very liberating, and it makes me pity others when I now hear them lamenting what others are not providing them, rather than them just doing it for themselves. God, as the chief target of expectation of provi...

It bothers me that I have to cover something so basic, so obvious... something with literally centuries of understanding, til recent years.  But... here's where we are. Let's talk about freedom and basic human rights.  We have a lot of use of the words by those that don't understand the basic definitions, so let's start there.   Rights: "A right is a power or privilege held by the general public, usually as the result of a constitution, statute, regulation, or judicial precedent." (Legal information Institute) Freedom: "The state or fact of being free from servitude, constraint, inhibition, etc.; liberty" (Oxford) We have in recent years adopted another view in society that says freedom is freedom from discomfort.  It says, you shouldn't be forced to do or be exposed to something you don't like.  The view says... I should not be expected to observe you living your life in your way, if it conflicts with my own beliefs.  It says.. I shouldn...