The Party of Hypocrisy

I spent way too long in the party of hypocrisy, defending their bipolar narcissist swings, but it's time they were called out on it.

For example in the years after the Covid outbreak, the party would scream my body my choice about being free to decide what to do with their own bodies in being able to choose whether to get a vaccine.  Then, they switched to now wanting to stop people from choosing to TAKE the vaccine.  Similarly, they are now wanting to stop even adults from taking hormone blockers for transgender procedures (while having no problems with viagara to get it up for sex), stop women from reproductive health choices, and more.

They also spent decades saying they don't have religious freedom, only to start mandating their version of faith upon everyone when they get into power.  They claimed state rights was supreme over federal power, til they got federal power.  Now, they want to stop states from defending college diversity programs, environmental protections, and more.  They claimed they wanted to support cops, only to start targeting federal law enforcement for elimination.  

The list goes on and on.  I left the party years ago in part when I realized what they say about themselves wanting freedom does not equate to freedoms they give to other points of view.  In the end in their mind, there is only one way.  When that is out of favor, they claim victimization.  When they get power, they see themselves as the instrument of God to impose their view on others.  And, that is both the definition of fascism and the exact qualities of a narcissist.. which I've had way too much experience in knowing.  I've given way too much support to those with which I disagree, only to have support for myself cut the moment they disagree with me.  We will not know freedom, until we separate ourselves from those who cannot stand us being.... ourselves.

Deliver Me From Evangelicals

I've said it before.  I can only co conclude based on what I've seen.

One year ago today, my very religious ex decided upon me dropping off my child after our weekend to block all future weekends for my child to be with her dad.  Was it because I did something terrible?  Threatening?  Angrily?  Nope.  We had just spent a weekend together after months of my having to be face down following eye surgery.  We had pleasant conversations, as usual.  The only thing I did was suggest my daughter should apologize for not spending her summer with me as I was entitled.  I had said in the Spring that as much as I wanted to see her I would understand if she had a job and couldn't spend the summer with me. Come summer, my ex texted that my daughter was LOOKING for a job and would be home as she did it... not the deal but ok.  The summer would pass and almost all was without a job but not with me.  So, I said she should apologize, and that set off my ex, who then said I wasn't a good influence on her, and as her mom she "had power" over that.  I noted it was kidnapping and illegal per custody agreement, but she said if i didn't like it "sue me but you won't win before she's 18."  Over the next 6 months of my sending my daughter both Christmas and birthday/graduation gifts...and attending her graduation.. I had good communication with my child via text, til a very long message from "my daughter" that went on several days and said things my child would know wasn't true (indicating it was my ex writing it) I was told to stay out of her life and that I was blocked.  I am almost certain it was my ex writing it, as it didn't match any prior conversations or style, but my ex had 6 months of uninterrupted propaganda aimed at my child to say unchallenged lies, too.  Bearing false witness and not honoring my child's father.

But, that is not my only experience with evangelicals by far.  I had many experience times upon which to base judgment.  I served as a greater in an evangelical church for over a year.  Then, my child got pneumonia.  No one from that church would visit the hospital, and when we returned there would be no prayers for my child, even though they knew my experience.  

I had an evangelical say "god" told her not to date me, after her lesbian daughter objected to her mom that she was dating.  I had an evangelical pastor friend of my 2nd ex that was scheduled to be out wedding officiant post on my FB page on my birthday the week of my wedding that he hoped "I would find Jesus" after he knew I was a long Christian and had a Bible degree.  What he DIDN'T know was his friend I was marrying was a family witch.  And,  I've had a LONG history of evangelical friends unfriend and abandoned me for questioning their political hero or being Democrat.

So, between my history with evangelicals and seeing them judge and condemn anyone different from them I think maybe the Lord's prayer was misinterpreted.  Instead of deliver us fron evil, it should be deliver us from evangelicals, because they seem to be the source of the anger and division in our world, today... following in a long tradition going back to burning witches, religious wars, and invading the middle east to convert by the sword in the crusades.  "God is love," is a popular thing for them to say in non election years,  but it definitely isn't something seen in our lives.